Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Hate that i love you...

[Rihanna:]That's much I love you (yeah) That's how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah) And I can’t stand ya Most everything you do make me wanna smile Can I not like you for awhile (No..) [Ne-Yo:] but you won’t let me You upset me girl and then you kiss my lips All of a sudden I forget that I was upset Can’t remember what you did But I hate it [Rihanna:] You know exactly what to do So that I can’t stay mad at you For too long, that’s wrong [Ne-Yo:] But, I hate it You know exactly how to touch So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more Said I despise that I adore you [Rihanna:]And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah) I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you) And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh) But I just can’t let you go And I hate that I love you so.. [Ne-Yo:]And you completely know the power that you have The only one that makes me laugh [Rihanna:] Said and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I Love you beyond a reason why And it just ain’t right [Ne-Yo:] And I hate how much I love you girl I can’t stand how much I need you And I hate how much I love you girl But I just can’t let you go And I hate that I love you so [Both:] One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me And your kiss won’t make me weak But no one in this world knows me the way you know me So you’ll probably always have a spell on me.. (yeah~oooh~)[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):] That's much I love you That's much I need youThat's much I need you That's much I love you That's much I love you That's much I need youThat's much I need youI need you[Rihanna:]And I hate that I love you sooo... [ Rihanna:]And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey) I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you) And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...ooh) But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go, no) And I hate that I love you so [Both:] And I hate that I love you so.. so..

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Lesson Learned

  • He broke my heartAnd now its rainingJust to rub it inI'm at your doorI feel so crazy about itYou'll say I told you soYou saw it long agoYou knew he had to goI finally came aroundI'm back on solid groundCant let it get me downIts alrightIts alrightIts alrightIts alrightIts alrightIts alrightIts alrightYes I was burned, but I call it a lesson learnedMistake overturned, so I call it a lesson learnedMy soul has returned so I call it a lesson learnedAnother lesson learnedSometimesSome lies can take a minute to fully realize His tearsYour eyesThirty seconds to apologizeYou'll give him one more chanceJust like the time beforeBut he already knowsYou'll give 100 moreUntil that night in bedYou'll wake up in a sweatYou're racing to the doorCan't take it anymoreI was burned but I call it a lesson learnedMistake overturned, so I call it a lesson learnedMy soul had returned so I call it a lesson learnedAnother lesson learnedLifes perfect, it aint perfect you dont know what the struggles forFalling down aint fallin down if you don't cry when you hit the floorIt's called the past cause i'm gettin pastAnd I aint nothing like I was before.You ought to see me nowYes I was burned, but I call it a lesson learnedMistake, I returned so I called it a lesson learnedMy soul has returned so I call it a lesson learnedAnother lesson learnedWoooo.

Thursday, November 15, 2007

In Transit.

I have been through a couple of things this past two weeks and it's been highs and lows.In terms of GOD last week i was flying high and loving the LORD with so much passion and zeal.I thank GOD for people like Phatie,Trish ,Memo and Buhle.I mean Phatie just seems to know when to call me and when to just shower love and hope into my life.I've been getting closer well in my own terms with GOD .Sunday confirmed so many things and i felt on a high and each day when i get disappointed or down i recall HIS name and promises.But you know what pisses me off it's the up amd down and i have no one to blame but myself.If i'm going to walk this walk then i better get my stuff straight and do the right thing which i know.Praise GOD for HIS mercy that endures .I feel like an addict who falls off and off the wagon constantly .Somehow i am surrounded by so many angels who are caring and looking after me and me after them.I 've been close to tears this week but i will stand firm on my faith and continue to seek HIM.

I got so pissed off with the way things were at work i just did my CV and sent it around ,now i'm kinda scared about wht would happen if Henk found out.Even as is the case working without knowing wht's up is frustrating and demotivating.It irritates me and just seems to leave everything hanging.I will seek strenght from GOD ,becoz I WILL get over this .Nothing will stop me praising HIM and HE alone has provided for me and each stone that i stumble on i know HE alone can take me over it .It's when i write like this and speak it ,it makes me grow and makes me know who HE is to me.HE is bigger than anything , HE will fight my battles and loving HIM has done so much for me.

There are times when i wish that i'd been so in tune with the Spirit that i avoid certain things..I dnt get men and i never will.I guess that is why i am single really i cannot go around having an argument about my body with someone else who has his own issues.Really i am so upset.Men see beyond a woman's body and stop being so selfish about what you need and what you are feeling.What happaned to old fashioned courting ,trying to find out what makes me tick before seeing my naked body?2007 was just an eye opener for me in terms of their minds and expectations.You have the guys who wants to be your friedn so he can shag you but want a realtionship ) ,then you have the guy in a realtionship who is not satisfied with what he has but backs out whe he gets played ,then you get the guy who likes you but is torn between his infiriority complex and his fear of women who are self assured and independent ,then comes the guy who likes you and tells everyone but you(point being??????????) ,then the guy you fall for but discover he is gay (cringe),then the guy who is your friend ,who you know has a chick but there is a spark and you know given the chance it'd burn,then the guy who goes to church but tends to be unreal and somewhat fake finally the worst the ones who convince you they want a realtionship but 2 days later talks about seeing you naked and what you like in bed.Now trust me i dnt blame women for being put off men for life.How are we to contend with this nonsense.I am at a point were i just do not care about men ,i am frustrated and do not give a hoot.I will not spend my time chasing around a boy who thinks he is a man in the bid to convince him tht he is a man.No i think GOD intended more for me and right now i am going back in park mode.No i am just been so put off i would rather be lonley than torn up in a realtionship that is not working.

I am in transit leaving all this behind ,grabbing more and going futher.My GOD can do exceedingly and abundantly over my own expectations.Beyond my imagination...