Monday, November 1, 2010

November - 31 Days to go




So I've decided to take my countdown to my blog .The challange is to write everyday as I take on the biggest step in my life .Those that have walked with me this year or part of it ,know why the next 30 days are the most exiciting in my life .

So let the countdown begin ,as we await the afternoon of the 3rd of December 2010 ,as I wait at the arrival terminal at O.R.Tambo waiting for the man that has given me smiles ,given me joy ;given me a reason to beilieve in the beauty of caring for someone .I have become the real me as he calls it .All I know is I have never been happier ,more content and at peace with who I am and what I deserve . I have chosen to embrace it all ,the lonliness at times , those timezones ,the smiles and take a step on a path I never planned ,on a path I have no compass to navigate the way with me.


So yes while I decide what to wear on that day ,wonder if my hair will be in place ,ponder and try to imagine that first moment ,I will let all the butterflies scatter on these pages. Through it all do not ask me to relax ,how can I ? He's coming yes he is coming.From nervous to excited to nervous ,I'm here . Never in my mind did I ever see myself as the girl at the airport terminal with a thousand butterflies fluttering ,waiting for those doors to open and watch him walk through them .Will I squeal ? Will I giggle ? Will I let out a scream ? Will I cry ? I have not clue ....




Walk with me as we countdown .

Happy 10 months to us ...wow ,we made it this far (I had made a bet that it would not go beyond 2 months -yes I'm eating my words...)

Mr Man ,I have never been happier that you saw through the whole facade (yes I still am Miss Superwoman...lol) and made me take a leap of faith .I never kenw I would be this happy or so humbled to have you in my life .10 months later all I want to say is thank you ,that when it seemed easy to walk away you stuck it out .I know I was not the easiest woman to get to know ,I know I made it seem like it would never go far but today I realise that you saw us ,before I had. You are the constant and I wouldn't have it any other way .




So let's go people ,31 days to go....*deep breath *



(I feel like I'm on the last leg of a marathon ...)

6 comments:

Kookie said...

Last month,I came across a quote/piece of writing that I loved and resonated within me. If I have the chance to experience what was written I would be beyond ecstatic. I have a feeling you have found it already though. You deserve it too, you are a beautiful person who deserves nothing less. I gift you this quote Missy xoxo:

"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

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neefemi said...

awwwwwwwww goodluck all the way ma

cyruswoman said...

now u r turning green the rest of us still stuck in singledom...ahhh. best wishes love. ...

ZimBlackRose said...

@neefemi thank you babe ,come walk with me till I get there.

@cyruswoman don't worry dear ,this journey is our journey ,I still need my sisters with me .I will always be an honourary member of Singledom *lol*