Monday, November 1, 2010
November - 31 Days to go
So I've decided to take my countdown to my blog .The challange is to write everyday as I take on the biggest step in my life .Those that have walked with me this year or part of it ,know why the next 30 days are the most exiciting in my life .
So let the countdown begin ,as we await the afternoon of the 3rd of December 2010 ,as I wait at the arrival terminal at O.R.Tambo waiting for the man that has given me smiles ,given me joy ;given me a reason to beilieve in the beauty of caring for someone .I have become the real me as he calls it .All I know is I have never been happier ,more content and at peace with who I am and what I deserve . I have chosen to embrace it all ,the lonliness at times , those timezones ,the smiles and take a step on a path I never planned ,on a path I have no compass to navigate the way with me.
So yes while I decide what to wear on that day ,wonder if my hair will be in place ,ponder and try to imagine that first moment ,I will let all the butterflies scatter on these pages. Through it all do not ask me to relax ,how can I ? He's coming yes he is coming.From nervous to excited to nervous ,I'm here . Never in my mind did I ever see myself as the girl at the airport terminal with a thousand butterflies fluttering ,waiting for those doors to open and watch him walk through them .Will I squeal ? Will I giggle ? Will I let out a scream ? Will I cry ? I have not clue ....
Walk with me as we countdown .
Happy 10 months to us ...wow ,we made it this far (I had made a bet that it would not go beyond 2 months -yes I'm eating my words...)
Mr Man ,I have never been happier that you saw through the whole facade (yes I still am Miss Superwoman...lol) and made me take a leap of faith .I never kenw I would be this happy or so humbled to have you in my life .10 months later all I want to say is thank you ,that when it seemed easy to walk away you stuck it out .I know I was not the easiest woman to get to know ,I know I made it seem like it would never go far but today I realise that you saw us ,before I had. You are the constant and I wouldn't have it any other way .
So let's go people ,31 days to go....*deep breath *
(I feel like I'm on the last leg of a marathon ...)